猜不透

There are certain things in life that I don’t really understand. I don’t expect anything in exchange for the things that I have done, but, at least appreciate what I’ve done.

Maybe I’m too conservative or whatever, but I don’t agree in what you do. Why must it be done this way? There is definately other ways of doing it. You asked me for opinions, I gave, but somehow, you do not agree with it, so, what’s the point of asking? I don’t like comparison, but you gave me the feeling that you had always wanted to compare with me. I don’t care whether you win me in things cause as long as I get the things done, I am happy. If you do not like the things I do, or even ME, just say it out, rather than keeping it to yourself, it will not solve things. I hate it when you  show faces. It just affects my mood. I hate it when you seem to be 2 different person with 2 different group of people. After bring friend for so many years, I realise that I really don’t understand you.

Yes.. We are Friends… but I think.. never the best of friends.

I just wanna release some stress by writing this post. Don’t think too much into it.

那么爱你为什么

离开你是傻是对是错是看薄是软弱
这结果是爱是恨或者是什么
如果是种解脱怎么会还有眷恋在我心窝
那么爱你为什么

I stopped talking to the wall!

Yes! I’m back to work… after staying at home for 5 weeks! Its good to be back at work… I’ve stopped talking to the wall at home. 5 weeks at home almost left me with depression. Was bored to death lo… but it was a good rest though.

There are lots of things to be done …

I need to catch with my dear friends…

I need to get a manicure done- again. My nails are dying…

I need to re-organise my work…

I need to ehhh… do lots of things la!

I’m still bored. and I dunno y!

 

And I HOPE TO GET MY MEDICAL CLAIMS SOON! – which i think it will take at least 1 month~

Disappointment

The more you expect… The greater the disappointment.

I always have high expectation on certain things, but things don’t turn out the way I wanted.

有些东西不是说了就算的， 是要用行动来证明的。

Staying at home = Bored!

I’m on 1 month MC! Before the operation, I’ve quite Happy to hear this. No need work for 1 month… But, its really bored! I’m bored to death… Carol gave me a suggestion, asking me to talk to the wal- She think i crazy arh!  But all thanks to her for coming to accompany me these 2 fridays, so that I’m not so bored! Thanks!! Welcome again next week…

How I wish my wound would heal faster… I wanna leave my house soon! I’m sick and tired of eating fish everyday.. Hahaha!!!

Hope I’ll get well soon! =)

你很爱他

当你决定　你要离开我　 我没有说什么　就当作你自由 有好几次我都想挽留　 哭求也没有用　就当作是寂寞 因为我能明白　他的温柔　对你是种解脱 就坦白告诉我　谁是你的最爱 其实你很爱他　对我的惩罚　 说你没有想他　是可怜我吧 我已没有借口　只能放手　 不肯奢求　你说爱我 其实你很爱他　她很温柔吗　 其实你很想他　就说出口吧 我已不想多说　捂住耳朵　 不想再次听到你说　你很爱她 其实你很爱他　对我的惩罚　 说你没有想他　是可怜我吧 我已没有借口　只能放手　 不肯奢求　你说爱我 其实你很爱他　她很温柔吗　 其实你很想他　就说出口吧 我已不想多说　捂住耳朵　 不想再次听到你说　你很爱她

不是我不明白

不是我不明白 这样并不算太坏
懂得爱 说来无奈
来自对你亏待 没刻意掩埋
没对他坦白 你还在
会进来吗 你在送我回家我还在猜测
可都是真的了
再见面前 一直想像还有某种关联
但客气是拒绝
新的朋友 不在重叠
你的世界 我在边缘
不是我不明白 这样并不算太坏
能再次关怀 时间洗刷所有的不愉快
后来的爱 我们尝试去宽待
懂得爱 说来无奈 来自对你亏待
没刻意掩埋 没对他坦白 你还在
没说分手 终于是能开玩笑的朋友 不是不难过的
多少年了 我想过能够和你一起老的
却都有别人了
新的朋友 不再重叠 我的世界 你在邊缘
不是我不明白 有些话我没说出来
能再次关怀 时间洗刷所有的不愉快
后来的爱 我们尝试去宽待
懂得爱 说来无奈 来自对你亏待
没刻意掩埋

没有
没对他坦白 你还在
不是我不明白
说悲哀并不应该
我们的关怀 像爱但又说不上爱
没有后来 我们才学会爱
但现在 说来感慨 不是那个未来
我们说好的
说好的 不会更改的 你会在

哭

以前我看到朋友哭我很羡慕
可是我怎么逗我自己怎么弄我自己
我的眼泪都流不出
总觉得能够哭的朋友都很幸福
能夠把滿腔的無奈滿腔的痛苦
让泪水带走最苦是泪水哽在心头
流不出就象要爱却不懂怎么去爱
自己哭过后才明白流过泪的眼睛
将生命看得更清楚
只有真正懂得付出的人
才懂得何为哭为何哭
再坚强的心偶尔也会脆弱
心会疼心也会感动
只有曾经真心付出的人
泪水要记得为真心保留
眼泪别白白地流

放弃。。。

累了，倦了。

付出再多，也得不到该有的回报。

我的能力有限。

就到此为止吧！

我决定放弃了.

Life at MCS…

My life at MCS…. Work Work Work!!! den Drink Drink Drink!!! Hahahahaaa….  I’ve got very nice colleagues there. Attending free events and movies… Thanks All!!!